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There was something I forgot to do, and it's this great little impromptu recap that I briefly mentioned earlier in this thread.

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I really hope I got Scott's last name right, as it was slightly smudged on the release and I'm err'ing on my original file name I made at the time. I failed to get his contact information that day.

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I also restored all of those missing photos on this thread.

Statistics: Posted by MoDaD — Thu Mar 09, 2017 6:41 pm

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As others have said, don't be so hard on yourself, Matt. We all make mistakes.

Statistics: Posted by Kooshmeister — Fri Apr 29, 2016 3:17 am

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Everyone makes mistakes and we are willing to forgive you. Don't beat yourself up over this.

I'm not sure what else to say... But I'm sure all will be forgiven.

Statistics: Posted by Felix Kayne — Fri Apr 29, 2016 12:38 am

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As i said before in other posts, I'm not good with world and probably I didn't manage to express myself as I intended. I'm glad that you all guys managed to do it better :3

Don't push yourself MoDaD, your had good intentions after all. And leaving is a NO-NO!!!

Statistics: Posted by Cait — Thu Apr 28, 2016 5:52 pm

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MoDaD... you are being way too hard on yourself, man.

I agree that you are being to hard on yourself. But of course we can't make you change how you feel. I was so excited to find out that even thought about my art while you were there. ^_^ Which thank you again... to me, you were being thoughtful.

If people think I should step down or go away or surrender whatever “position” I have here I wouldn’t disagree.

Can I slap you around for saying this? No. It was a mistake made. One that you have felt deep regret for.

As for all this work that you have done for the SWAT Kats Revolution at the Anime Con. Thank you for putting so much or your time and resources into this event. Along with recording details of this SWAT Kat event that you have taken the time to post here...making it a mark in SK history. For thinking of the fans, even including us fans that were not able to participate in the con ourselves.

Statistics: Posted by Poecat — Thu Apr 28, 2016 5:14 pm

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And, here’s the part that’s been weighing heavily on me for months now. It’s really demoralizing because it’s entirely my fault. I hate to end this thread on a downer, but I feel that this needs to be disclosed because so many of you have asked me to elaborate on this and I think you deserve to know, despite it making me look bad. I also think it’s an important experience to share that hopefully something can be gleaned from.

MoDaD... you are being way too hard on yourself, man.

I know two other artists who were touched that you thought of them. I myself was flattered. This makes at least three artists you did this for very grateful and thrilled you thought so highly of us and our fan work. Having them also write positive remarks and all on hard copies for the artists you were able to have time for was beyond wonderful.

It's a shame that you had a falling out with someone over this. Hopefully time will help heal all wounds, that the gesture will be seen as your attempt at appreciation for their work. You've apologized and accepted responsibility and that's all you can do. What's done is done. Don't let one bad reaction towards something you did cause you to drop out of the fandom entirely. I see no reason for you to be removed as moderator here or quit participating elsewhere.

I am with Felony on this one.
You are being really hard on yourself, MoDaD. I am very grateful for everything you've done, and you've done so much for the fans, artists and fandom as a whole, that I don't even know where to start. When I was going through your posts, I was amazed and was constatntly thinking "Wow, dude... this was quite an organization, MoDaD went above and beyond with all of this..".
You don't know how grateful I am, you did an amazing job and I think that you should not be removed from your moderator position. I totally understand your situation and I really hope this will be resolved in the best possible way.

Statistics: Posted by Kanogetz — Thu Apr 28, 2016 3:44 am

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MoDaD... you are being way too hard on yourself, man.

I totally agree with Felony here.

You had good intentions and things just went in a way you didn't expect. Like I wrote in my rather long PM I've sent you a short time ago, this could also have happened to me because I hadn't thought about that too.

Furthermore, I think there's either none or both of you to blame. You could have asked before doing that and the artist could have told you what she was planning to do. That's how I see it and I think that's all what I have to say about this in this thread.

And don't even think about leaving or surrendering anything. There's no need for that.

There was also an additional page that was an ensemble for things I didn’t have time to make their own pages, which I think is okay to share here:

Thank you for posting this. I really feel appreciated and I assume the others mentioned on that page are feeling like this too. (The apology to Kooshmeister for Dr. Zyme is just hilarious. )

Statistics: Posted by Mr. Goodkat — Thu Apr 28, 2016 3:22 am

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And, here’s the part that’s been weighing heavily on me for months now. It’s really demoralizing because it’s entirely my fault. I hate to end this thread on a downer, but I feel that this needs to be disclosed because so many of you have asked me to elaborate on this and I think you deserve to know, despite it making me look bad. I also think it’s an important experience to share that hopefully something can be gleaned from.

MoDaD... you are being way too hard on yourself, man.

I know two other artists who were touched that you thought of them. I myself was flattered. This makes at least three artists you did this for very grateful and thrilled you thought so highly of us and our fan work. Having them also write positive remarks and all on hard copies for the artists you were able to have time for was beyond wonderful.

It's a shame that you had a falling out with someone over this. Hopefully time will help heal all wounds, that the gesture will be seen as your attempt at appreciation for their work. You've apologized and accepted responsibility and that's all you can do. What's done is done. Don't let one bad reaction towards something you did cause you to drop out of the fandom entirely. I see no reason for you to be removed as moderator here or quit participating elsewhere.

Statistics: Posted by Felony — Thu Apr 28, 2016 12:15 am

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I'm sorry not just for hear that, but also for that artist (I can imagine of who you are talking about). People commit mistakes, it's part of all's life and what teaches us lessons for our future. If that person thinks the same, i'm sure she will forgive you at some time if she haven't already, as probably the rest of Megakatcity.com members would do. So please, just remember it for the next time so you have truly learnt of this and don't let it become an unmovable weight for the rest of your life.

Statistics: Posted by Cait — Wed Apr 27, 2016 3:47 pm

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And, here’s the part that’s been weighing heavily on me for months now. It’s really demoralizing because it’s entirely my fault. I hate to end this thread on a downer, but I feel that this needs to be disclosed because so many of you have asked me to elaborate on this and I think you deserve to know, despite it making me look bad. I also think it’s an important experience to share that hopefully something can be gleaned from.

24 hours prior to my departure I was scrambling to get everything in order. With less than an hour before I’d leave to the airport I realized a two things. One: I needed more SD cards.

And two, I needed to do/have something for everyone (or at least as many people as I could). Something to make people feel included or to be a part of the event somehow. At this point I was still dubious as to what was going to happen (in the back of my mind I was still concerned my access would be denied and the dinner plans would fall through).

With only minutes to think I remembered the MegakatCity.com art thread, and I thought to myself “why not pick some examples from some of our great artists and have the Tremblays and Lance take a look and leave hand-written replies on, and then mail those to the respective people?”

Not the most creative idea, but I thought it would be better than nothing, so I tracked down as many high resolution versions of art examples from some of our artists as I could in a few minutes and put together a packet (if you did not already receive one by now that means I missed you – you have my permission to hate me for eternity).

There was also an additional page that was an ensemble for things I didn’t have time to make their own pages, which I think is okay to share here:



I’d envisioned this being the closing image to this thread two months ago, but circumstances changed…

I had this packet stuffed in my equipment bag throughout the day Friday, and about 90 minutes into dinner during the course of conversation the many talented artists in the SWAT Kats fandom came up, and I thought to myself “this seems like a natural segue” and I mentioned the packet and they were really eager to see the work. Christian was very interested in all of it, and Lance commented several times that many of you are better artists than he is.

There was one in particular that stood out due to a comic she had labored on and put together in an incredibly short amount of time. I had a full copy of this printed out that I shared with them to serve as an example of the fandom’s awesome level of participation, to show how much the series meant to people, and how much the Kickstarter effort has helped to rejuvenate online activity.

All three of them were very impressed, and Christian said that he’d seen it (and other items) and while the conversation at the table continued between myself and Lance, Christian was transfixed on this particular work for a good 10 minutes. I think there’s just something about having something in-hand as opposed to on a monitor that made it all the more impressive. They all left handwritten comments reflecting their appreciation.

Later that evening once back at my hotel I finally had an opportunity to check things on my phone (email/forum/twitter).

I was really eager to contact this particular artist first to let her know I was there, my level of access and also to start to get some follow-up ideas (from her and others) now that I knew for certain about Saturday.

As we’d developed a rapport over the year, I forwarded her some pictures of the signed items in question, playing dumb with a “look what someone sent to me” kind of tone. The responses I received were completely unexpected, but as it sank in, I began to realize just what it was that I did, and in hindsight I have no idea why I didn’t realize it at the time. It was even a topic on this very forum, and I completely forgot about it.

Out of respect for the artist I’m not going into specifics, but I feel obligated to share something with all of you as I feel you’re entitled to some kind of explanation.

So, here’s the explanation:

I did something very wrong: I stole something. And it’s something that can never be returned. I stole the opportunity of an artist to debut her work, and put myself into the middle of something without permission that I had no right to do.

I still forwarded this person the items I’d already wanted to get to them to begin with before this incident (this is the same person I referenced regarding the 3-day lanyard and badge pass earlier) along with T-shirts, a signed poster and other misc. convention items, along with the signed items. So, at the very least, she has those, which despite our irreparable professional relationship I still wanted to make sure she had, because she deserves them.

I knew that going to the convention, my attendance would change things. There’d be “before” and there’d be “after.” I knew that things would be different, but due to my carelessness it wound up costing something that I deeply regret.

So, once again, my most sincere of apologies to her, and my most sincere of apologies to all of you who I did the same thing to. I had no right to do what I did. There’s really no way for me to make amends. If people think I should step down or go away or surrender whatever “position” I have here I wouldn’t disagree.

This has been in the back of my mind for awhile now and it’s been eating me up, because I’ve always had a huge amount of respect for what artists do in this fandom (and this one in particular), and to have hurt one of you so deeply is just…I don’t really have words to describe the level of disappointment I have toward myself.

Statistics: Posted by MoDaD — Wed Apr 27, 2016 1:51 pm

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